It has been over a week since my last post, and about the same since I visited other blogs. It has been the longest period between posts since I started blogging, other than when I didn’t have internet access.
In that time I have started 3 posts, but not finished them. I’ve glanced at my reader and simply didn’t follow the links.
I have no excuse other than lack of time, or more specifically energy.
I was thinking the other day about why I don’t seem to have the time these days. And it’s not the time that is the issue. It’s the mental energy!
To be honest, I started this blogging thing over a year ago to help diffuse energy. It was somewhere to vent, to focus my thoughts, to contribute to the world in some small way. Lately, as you all know, other things have taken my energy. And it seems to me that it’s sapping all the strength out of me! I can’t string a coherent thought together. Those three posts I started seemed such a good idea then turned into nothing but dribble. I refuse to let this place simply become a diary of my daily doings. “Today I went to work, did the shopping and helped Zoe with her homework, blah blah blah” is about as riveting to both you and myself as watching paint dry. So I refuse to do it. But it seems that I am totally incapable of doing anything but! I have nothing to write that I would like to put my name to. I can’t focus long enough to finish something that started off so promising…
Having said all that, I do apologise for apparently deserting you in favor of my new life, and my new man. I haven’t. Ask him. He doesn’t get me or my energy as much as you’d think either. It’s just that all that energy and focus that used to go into blogging something with real substance is channelled elsewhere! And it’s wrong I know. I mean I feel GUILTY about it. Here is me, the queen of blog etiquette and I’ve broken all my own rules. And I MISS you guys! I really do! And I just would rather not be here than write useless crap. I don’t want you to see me as the gal who became that dumbass boring chick who wrote just for the sake of writing…I used to have opinions, and independent thoughts that were worth sharing. Maybe I ran out…
You guys have been there for me through thick and thin. You’ve laughed with me, cried with me, held my hand when I needed it, offered my coffee or scotch - or drunk it for me- and just generally been fantastic. So with that in mind, I offer you the following:
I debambam, aka kelly, of debambam.net do hereby solemnly swear that I shall spend the next few days (after work) catching up on what’s going on in your world. I promise that I shall take the time to find the energy and focus to actually read it rather than skim over and endeavour to leave you a comment of substance. I also swear that I shall NEVER again leave it so long between posts unless the internet implodes on itself. I will eat more energy bars, drink guarana and ginseng drinks if I have to and actually get my brain functioning enough to write something worth reading.
I honestly cannot see myself blogging as much as I have in the past. So I’m thinking that I will post one day, and visit you guys and respond to your comments (if you leave any, wouldn’t blame you if you didn’t!) on the next. An alternate day thing! This blogging thing never fitted INTO my life, it WAS my life. Very sad, I know. But that is how it was. So my problem is that now I have to figure out how to have both. And I will…it’s just taking me longer than I thought that’s all….
Thanks for listening guys. I’m off to get ready for work. It’s 6.51am and I start at 8. Extra shift. Which is good, cos the car needs close to a thousand dollars work on it!
Have yourselves a fantastic weekend…..
Take care..and I WILL be seeing you shortly.
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Now I feel bad for razzing you. Don’t worry about it. I totally understand. I actually went through a similar thing when I got my current job. Unfortunately, I didn’t have a great new guy - just a crazy new job that drove me nutso.
It’s hard to adjust from one schedule when you can pretty much blog whenever and however you want to finding the time to squeeze it in. I’m there with you - believe me. The last six months have been tough in that regard.
The solution I came up with is that I write several posts on my days off and just schedule them to post. It’s not as fun as writing every day something new - but it works okay for me.
Take care, luv-
Annie
ok….2 hail mary’s, 5 our fathers, you go visiting and all is forgiven…
i do hear what you’re saying sweetie, i really do, but i also remember who it was taught me the about the world of blogging too…the whole new schedule thing is understandable, i agree, and yes it will take some time, but i have to say annie has a good point…i tried this whole “schedule to post at another time” and it works!! edit the post time stamp to whenever you want, hit publish, see it when that time comes around…quite amazing!!
you and i both know people do understand, and we all know “the petition” was a bit of fun, so i don’t feel bad about razzin’ you at all!! takes more than this to make me feel like a baaaaaaad mother
My guess is that every comment above and below will say exactly the same thing as I’m about too Kel. That this happens to everyone. Don’t feel bad, guilty or whatever. This is your space and you do what you will to enjoy the life you are making. My blog is for me, to record stuff online rather than a stuffy drawer somewhere in the study, it just so happens that people pop in to search through the junk once in a while. I feel the same some times, heck I get to posts out a week and I think it’s an acheivement!
hard to believe but Kel, a rundown of your day is actually insightful so do it sometime.
have a great Queens B’day Weekend.
Don’t sweat it Annie! Don’t blame you to be honest
You know, the problem with doing it on my day’s off is that they are so full up already I need to go back to work for the rest! Like yesterday - get car checked, go see Centrelink, grocery shopping, warm clothes shopping, get Zoe, yadda yadda yadda….
I will try the whole post dated thing though, it may just do the trick!!
Thanks for sticking with me darl
Cheers, Kelly
You and your bloody petition, and here was me thinking that people missed me, they didn’t really, they were responding to YOUR post!
Kelly
I know it happens to everyone, but I do still feel guilty. Your right, it is my place, but the cobwebs are gathering and I HATE cleaning so it would be just easier to stop in once in a while
I’m going to try for 3 posts a week and I’ll be happy!
Thanks Ev, your a treasure did you know that?
Cheers, Kelly
well in fact ev was here before my petition, and a couple of others had asked if you were ok….don’t tell me you lost your sense of humor as well now kel???
No I haven’t lost my sense of humor!! Just shit stirring :yum:
Kelly
ahh now see, there’s your problem - don’t give a target of weekly blog posts, just make a not in your phone while your out if something strikes you as bloggable and throw together some of your funny lil bulletin point posts when you can be botherd to put all those notes together.
Like ya ma says, you can always write more than one and ‘post date’ it to publish some other time. That way you won’t feel guilty because you’ve ‘missed a post’
just popping in so we know you’re alive and well is fine m’love - seriously, blogging is a tool and I’m glad it’s no longer your life.
no! you’re not are you?? :shock:
Aww, don’t worry Kel, we’re all busy and doing the same. Life gets that way sometimes. As for nothing to write, I’ve been there for months. We’ll work through it.
Kel-
You gotta do what you gotta do.
Whenever you get back to the blogging world is fine.
I know you’re still out there.
I just thank God you sound happy.
That’s all I really wanted for you anyway.
Just drop me a line now and again, ok?
Peace, out . . . kiddo,
~m
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