Thankyou.
It says it all, but not nearly enough.
When I’m down and out, your there to lift me up.
When I’m happy, your there to help me celebrate it.
If I need an arm. You cut yours off.
And when I need to come home, the door is always open, and the bed already made.
Apop, you are, despite recent opinion polls, a wonderful father. How am I qualified to make this statement? For the last 11 years you’ve been an amazing second one to me. And I don’t think I’ve ever said thank you. Well, THANKYOU. I’m sorry I bruised your hand. I’m sorry your boat isn’t in the shed already. I’m sorry that once again I disrupted your lives. But I’m not sorry your Zoe’s poppy. And I’m not sorry that we have you in our lives. I honestly cannot imagine my recent journey without you in it. Your strength through your own adverse times has inspired me to strive higher, and be a better person.
Smummy, I know how hard it must be to watch me walk away again. But I also know that you know how truly happy I am. At least this time it’s only across town hey?!! I know that that doesn’t make it any easier. You’ve listened when I talked, hugged me when I cried, let me heal and rest when I needed to do so. I am the person I am today because you helped me find her by simply allowing me to be me without judgement. I am ready to do this ONLY because you gave me the love, the time and the skills to take another risk and to step forward into the next part of my life.
I cannot ever express how much I am grateful for everything you both have done for me. Hopefully my happiness and contentment will ease some of the many painful moments I’m sure I’ve put you both through. I hope that in some small way you can see that despite everything, I wouldn’t change a thing. If I did, I wouldn’t be who I am, and where I am today. And I’m more than happy with who and where I am. I am happy. And content. And for the first time in a long time, I am ME. For the first time in my life I’m not scared of tomorrow. I’m looking forward to it and all it promises.
Thankyou both so much for everything. I hope the ghosts of an empty house are drowned out by the memories we’ve given you and the love we take with us. And I hope that you do truly realise that I will forever feel indebted to you for all you’ve sacrificed, and all you’ve given…..
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Aw, that’s so sweet. You are a lucky lady to have such loving parents. They are two in a million - but I know that you know that already.
WC
Wow, leaving the nest so soon? You’ve only just arrived! I hope it turns out to be the best move ever. Good luck!
oh kel…..
painful memories? gone…we remember the good only…and there have been so many i would struggle to recall all of them..
disrupted our lives? sweetie, you’ve never done that, merely suggested we take a couple of detours….
i know you’re happy, i know you’re excited, and i know you’re looking forward to the future the way you should be…with anticipation and happiness..
and i think you know i’m trying to type this with tears running down my face…but this time the tears are for all the right reasons and that’s a good thing…
we know how much you appreciate what we’ve been able to do (which i have to be honest, is not really a lot i don’t think and no more than any parent should do for a child) i know you think it’s huge, but it’s not been a chore….however i do appreciate the way you see it…
the rewards for the little we’ve done have been huge! we’ve received far more in return than we’ve given….the pleasure we’ve had with you and zoe in the house has by far outweighed the downside…yes, there are positives to you not being here, but i’d rather have the negatives and still have you both…
that however is not meant to be…and again, that’s for all the right reasons…
we do know how much you love us, it’s not something we’ve ever doubted…
the ghosts of an empty house are banished by the love and contentment in our hearts for yours, tony’s and zoe’s happiness…for the first time in many years, we’re not going to worry about you both…because we know you’ll be ok this time….
thank you for the post darlin’….it was a wonderful (if emotional) little
surprise….give that little girl a kiss for us ok?
mum & mark
one other little thing sweetie….you owe us nothing…you are, and that’s enough…and always has been…
Cheeky bugger, moving out so you dont have to be a dirty stop out any more. Goodluck, i bet you are excited, I am for ya.
Ev XX
I’m sure Amum and Apop already know all that you’ve so eloquently written here but I’m glad you posted it anyway.
Know that though you’ve gone, there’s still and angel in the house.
Good luck Kel.
~m
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