That up there is my new car. Well it’s not brand new. But it is new for me. 
And I am just so excited! It might as well be a first car! Did I mention I’m excited?!!! I’m using way too many exclamation points!!! It’s a ‘93 Mazda 121, 5spd manual and it just cool as. CD player that works, air con, tinted windows and all set for me to personalise it!
Now I suppose your wondering why all the fuss over a slightly beat up but very adorable second hand car? Well it’s what it represents. It’s a step. A step in my journey. I arrived here in September with Zoe, two suitcases and a shattered soul. So it’s another part of the rebuilding of my life in a very big way. It’s independence. It’s a sign of things to come. It’s giving a small part of me to someone else…
Every time I look at this car, I am reminded of the most amazing man who I totally adore and fell in love with when I wasn’t looking to do anything of the sort. I went looking for something I knew I didn’t really need, and found everything I never knew I needed. Did that confuse you?! Don’t worry, I do that to myself as well so your not alone. Anyway as I was saying, this car is a constant reminder of Tony. I could have done this on my own, albeit in a couple of months. But he has helped me do it. Because he wanted to. Because that’s just how he is. Because it’s part of not just MY journey, but the first step towards OUR journey. He understands my need for independence. Understood when I wanted to do this car thing in such a way that I could honestly sit and say, ‘well if you weren’t here, I still could have done this’ That might seem a little pedantic to you, but I have my reasons for being that way. Tony doesn’t care. He totally listened to and respected my wishes.
To even let him help me was a compromise..which is what all successful relationships need as we all know. But it was easy to do. Come to think of it, almost everything in this is easy. Don’t get me wrong, we’ve had our ups and downs. But we are both very capable of recognising potential issues and talking through them before they become to big to handle.
It’s late and I kind of forgot what my damn point was..I did indeed have one! It’ll come to me…at 3 in the morning probably. Until then, I wish for anyone reading this to be as happy as I am right now. But then I doubt it. I mean I got a car AND the best goddamn man in the world…YAY FOR ME!!
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i’m thrilled for you but part of me is sad…i know i don’t need to explain it…you know exactly what i mean…and yeah…he is pretty special isn’t he? (best take a screen shot of that you may never see it again hey???)
p.s it will different having my own car everyday i have to say
Congrats on the car! I remember the feeling very clearly. I would look out the window of my house just to check and make sure it was still in the driveway. Independence, control, success, freedom of movement and choices for life. Although he’s great, don’t jump off the “you” path too quickly. Establish your foundation firmly first. You’ll be much stronger and happier, trust me, I’ve been there. The world turns on its axis more quickly and frequently than we can ever predict.
Trust me VV, the last thing I’m ever going to allow to happen is losing ME. And there is no pressure to do so. There is a ME, and a TONY, and an US. As for the world turning quickly? Tell me about it! My life is so vastly different to this time last year. I often wake up and think OMG…..
Cheers, Kelly
Far fricking out! Love that you got a new car too. And your dreamboat just keeps racking up the points. You drive, girl, you drive fast and hard and you enjoy every minute of it. You deserve it.
Love
Annie
Aww schucks :shy: Lucky the car (AKA: BUBBA) is Red, matches the blushing face here.
Perhaps I should do my rendition of Kevin Bloody Wilson (Living next door to Allan) every time I get in it from now on…Ay Edwin, adda lookat dis one, it’s a flash one eh! And I believe mine goes faster den yours ’cause it’s a RED one…
Showing you how these two plugins works AND agreeing, yes he is pretty special. Especially with his language skills
Kelly
I love that I got the car too…and the dreamboat! I’m enjoying every minute of them both. And as for driving fast and hard, to which one are you referring??!
Cheers, Kelly
It is NOT BUBBA - I told you, bubba is a big fat truckie in a blue singlet that has marks where it’s rubbing against the steering wheel :NO:
How about Edwin instead??!
Love ya sexy
p.s glad your blushing…
I’m very happy for you!
Congrats on the car,
Didn’t I just get rid of an early model red Mazda 121!!!!!!?
Wonderful, Wonderful.
Happy for ya, Kel.
Cool set of wheels as well.
keep on, keepin on…
~m
I’m happy for me too
Thanks CeCe!
Kelly
Not unless your a 20 something chick who pawned her car at a pawnbroker sometime before March!!!
Kelly
Thanks Michael
Kelly
why are you a bubble girl?????? i just love the CD……:music:
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