autoschediastic asseverations

..thinking about the queen on the loo

..looking up rude words in the dictionary

..laying in bed and listening to the kids in the morning when they think we are still asleep

..that ad on tv for windex where the magpies ring the door bell then close the door

Some of my fav photos I’ve taken of late…..

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Have fun.

I am

Somehow, life has once again got in the way of bloggin…there was once upon a time that it seemed as though the blog WAS my life. I guess in a sense that it’s a good and positive thing that it no longer is. I’m a little saddened in a way, this place is a bit like an old friend, and I feel like we’ve grown apart..as friends do. People change, as do the reasons for people being in our lives.

I’m reluctant to say good bye to this place, but I’ve given up trying to integrate it back into my life. No relationship should be hard work! I suppose you think I’m nuts for calling the interaction between myself and some server here in Sydney a ‘relationship’..but in a sense that what it is. We communicate. I have my needs, it has it’s needs and if neither of those are met, then the relationship begins to change. And that is what is happening here. Luckily for me, the other side aint very demanding really and will just sit and wait for me to come along and pay attention once in a while..which I will continue to do.

SOOOO anyway…enough of the theological discussions over a piece of internet real estate!

Life is good for many reasons. Despite the fact that I have flu, and have been crook…that part totally sucks, but only the good die young so I’m here for awhile!

This week marked a major milestone for me. It was 2 years since I began my job with Council. I still love my job…I still love the work, the people I work with, the learning that I still do each and every day, the goals I have now set and the new career path I am on the way to. It’s all good. And is only going to get better.

These last couple of months have brought a big change into my life in the form of a man who I adore, and his two children. He was unexpected, but like that other big time in my life when something that I never thought possible occurred, it has brought the most amazing emotions, happiness, opportunities and experiences. I’m a little reluctant to use the words ‘soul mate’ simply as I do not believe that such an idea exists in terms of the conventional sense (that’s a discussion for another day!) but you know what? He comes bloody close!

I’ve loved before, and been loved. I’ve been comfortable and content and happy. But never quite like this. That is not to detract from any previous experiences, this is just on a whole other level. I really can’t describe it any other way than to say that he JUST FITS. We have similiar experiences, likes, dislikes, morals, attitudes, goals. We are the at the same place in life, and heading to the same place. As we learn more and more about each other, the more we have in common. He accepts me, just as I am. There is no compromising who we are to make things work, there is no holding back aspects of ourselves to impress. He’s just him. And I love him for that. I’m just me. He loves me for that. And together, we are just us. And the kids. What to say about the kids. All three of them..that’s Zoe and the two that came as a package with my man..well they just fit too. Fit each other and fit us.

I’m not going to sit here and bore you with all the details, and mushy crap about how much I love him and blah blah…although quite easily I could. Suffice to say that for the first time in my life it feels like the stars have aligned..and being ME is ok for this world. I’m ok with who I am, and I’ve found someone else who is ok with who I am and loves me for it.

I hope this finds you all well…I’m not going to promise to blog more, it probably won’t happen. I’d love to be able to say I’ll visit more, but in reality I’m not sure how I found time to stop by this place and clean enough cobwebs out to write a little something.
What I will do is continue to live life, be happy, love more, and laugh everyday and I hope you are all doing the same.

Take a minute today to remember those who gave all, or have served and in essence been prepared to give all if needed. It won”t even come close to being enough to say thanks, but do it anyway.

They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old;
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning
We will remember them.

LEST WE FORGET

I didn”t make it into the march this year, and if you haven”t already seen them, go here and take a look at some of the photos I took last year. I still wish I could have stopped and talked to each and every person and asked what their story was, lord knows they deserve to be heard.

Hope you and your families have a safe and happy easter.

Much luv,
Kell and Zoe

You need a license to drive a car, have a dog or cat, own a gun, go fishing, hell – even to go camping in some places. With this license usually comes some sort of test/education to ensure you are responsible and knowledgeable enough to safely and thoughtfully do whatever it is you have the license for.

Yet any fuckwit human (and I use the term loosely in reference to some that fall under the definition in it’s real sense) can breed and bring another human into this world without the need to prove themselves fit to do so.

And what does our government do? GIVE THEM MONEY.

Go here and read what’s happening in some parts of this ‘lucky’ country of ours. Tell me, how lucky do you think these poor kids are? I know it’s only some of the mothers out there who fall into this category, I am not generalising here. But for crying out loud, isn’t one one too many?

Between this and the feral, dog like anti social behavior I see in the streets from today’s youth, I am shit scared for our future. These are tomorrow’s leaders. Fuck.

Thinking of you, but you already know that.

Originally posted 25th Nov 2006, I’m not sure why I’m reposting it, but I am.

kissing a memory,
too old to remember,
pain still so fresh, but
I will not surrender
who built the walls,
was it me, was it you?
too great to bring down,
if only you knew
my silence betrays,
just how lost I feel,
need to find me again,
need to be real
the taste of tomorrow,
so inviting and sweet,
with yesterday gone,
the worlds at my feet
what will I do with it?
can’t let myself down
maybe the numbness
will finally drown
but hope springs eternal
I can still see the sun
if only it shone
then i’d be done